Why do we want what we can't have? That which is ever so close, yet so far away. Is it fair for me to ask of you what you morally can't? Only because I want you to stay? In this better, alternating reality, my dreams you're with me, from dusk to dawn, day after day. But when I wake up you're gone, the usual cliché. Instantly filled with regret, wishing I could just fall asleep again, in "our" bed. Dreaming, hoping, I guess it's just my way of coping. But you know, maybe if I tried hard enough, I could just let it all go and forget. And if that doesn't work, well, I'll just have to learn to live with this regret. Regret for this one and only missed chance at our Romeo and Juliet-like romance.
All she wanted was my attention. I did not. To get kisses and hugs and love she deserved. I did not. She was emotionally available. I was not. She was perfect in every single way a man could ask for. I was not. She was marriage material. I was not. I made a horrendous mistake. She did not. She was furious, emotionally broken. I was too. After my mistake, after I lost everything I realised what I had found was true love. But I threw it all away without a second thought. Now she's everything I used to be, and I'm everything she used to be. Waiting for her to give that attention. To get those hugs, kisses and love I don't actually deserve anymore. For her to be emotionally available. Waiting for us to be perfect in every single way a couple could ask for. For us to get married. With forgiven horrible mistakes. Happier than ever, emotionally fixed and better than ever. My love, my life, my everything.
On a day like today when the earth crumbles under your feet. A day where a loved one gets lost and everyone's heart skips a beat. A day where families grieve and lovers have a fight. Where one stays very much awake until the middle of the night. A night filled with rain, lightning and thunder, as if even the Gods cry because their hero was put asunder. A night where one can't help but wonder... Will everyone be alright? Will they move on and never forget? These are but a few questions whilst I lay here, awake, in our bed. Have a nice eternal rest husband, father, friend, one day we'll all see each other again, for this isn't the end. - In loving memory of Alex Ausloos, 19/01/1961 - 23/06/2022 -
I’m sat here, trying to write out the words that I want to come out ever so much. Everything from how I feel and such, to how I miss your ever so soft touch.
I once knew that lovely feeling called “bliss”, one of the many things I miss, one of the many things you made me feel. All this sadness, all this hurt I’m trying to conceal. I don’t know if it’s working or if it’s not, maybe it’s all just for naught.
I know it’s pointless and I know I shouldn’t. But I still love you, even though you couldn’t.
I know I shouldn’t, and I know it’s pointless. But I still love yo
Ever since I met you my life has changed for the better.
I didn't use to dream, but now I do. Every single night, and all I dream about is you.
Dreams of a simple touch, of love of lust. Dreams of how you look at me when I look at you, smiling about this secret we share.
I wasn't truly happy. My appearance said otherwise, but I wasn't, not really. But now every single day is a blessing, a God's given gift. All because you helped me say goodbye to my obstacle, my own personal rift.
Ever since then it's as if I see life through a pair of pink glasses. At least now I understand why they're so popular among the masses.
I guess with al
Live, love, regret,
Sometimes I wish we never met.
It would have saved me the pain of which I've had no gain.
Nothing but a broken heart filled with a hint of misery and sorrow.
And please don't even remind me of tomorrow.
For it's another day hurt, another day I wish I could revert.
Live, love .. I'm glad we met.
My heart you've taken,
my reality you've shaken,
this must be a dream, one of which I don't want to awaken.
Awaken from this dream, awaken with a scream, the pain ever so extreme. Yet however bad it may seem, if that's the price to pay I'll gladly do it over, day after day.
And at the end of it all I can do is promise you this; even if you say "Nay", my love for you will never go away.
You are ..
my love,
my heart,
my everything.
You are ..
the reason I get up in the morning,
the reason I dream at night,
the reason I feel alive.
I know this might sound cliché, but I'll say it anyway; "Maybe one day I want you to be my wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part. And hereto I pledge you my faithfulness."
Saying all of the above I know I'm running the risk of it being too much for you to take, especially as there's quite a lot at stake. But all I ask you to do is look in
I told her I loved her, she said it's sweet.
Perhaps she didn't realise it, but it made my words feel obsolete.
Please don't tell me love's always this bittersweet.
But even so, like a heart needs to beat people need love. Well, sort of ..
Though I never seem to find it. Because every time I try I seem to be in need of glue.
Glue to mend my broken heart once more, just like those times before.
I'm in love, but what is she? by Sora81, literature
Literature
I'm in love, but what is she?
I'm in love, but what is she?
Could she only be toying with me?
Maybe she is,
maybe she's not.
Perhaps it's all part of her plot.
I don't know what to believe,
all I am, is afraid she'd leave.
Leave me for what I am, but the half of a riddle.
There is no doubt that she's in the middle.
In the middle, the center of attention.
The center of my heart, I forgot to mention.
The center of my tension, my love, my fear,
all I want is for her to love me dear.
It's not too much to ask I'd like to think,
but then it comes to me, just as I blink.
It's all in my head, or so I was told,
and all of a sudden I feel ever so cold.
I wish she
Why do we want what we can't have? That which is ever so close, yet so far away. Is it fair for me to ask of you what you morally can't? Only because I want you to stay? In this better, alternating reality, my dreams you're with me, from dusk to dawn, day after day. But when I wake up you're gone, the usual cliché. Instantly filled with regret, wishing I could just fall asleep again, in "our" bed. Dreaming, hoping, I guess it's just my way of coping. But you know, maybe if I tried hard enough, I could just let it all go and forget. And if that doesn't work, well, I'll just have to learn to live with this regret. Regret for this one and only missed chance at our Romeo and Juliet-like romance.
All she wanted was my attention. I did not. To get kisses and hugs and love she deserved. I did not. She was emotionally available. I was not. She was perfect in every single way a man could ask for. I was not. She was marriage material. I was not. I made a horrendous mistake. She did not. She was furious, emotionally broken. I was too. After my mistake, after I lost everything I realised what I had found was true love. But I threw it all away without a second thought. Now she's everything I used to be, and I'm everything she used to be. Waiting for her to give that attention. To get those hugs, kisses and love I don't actually deserve anymore. For her to be emotionally available. Waiting for us to be perfect in every single way a couple could ask for. For us to get married. With forgiven horrible mistakes. Happier than ever, emotionally fixed and better than ever. My love, my life, my everything.
On a day like today when the earth crumbles under your feet. A day where a loved one gets lost and everyone's heart skips a beat. A day where families grieve and lovers have a fight. Where one stays very much awake until the middle of the night. A night filled with rain, lightning and thunder, as if even the Gods cry because their hero was put asunder. A night where one can't help but wonder... Will everyone be alright? Will they move on and never forget? These are but a few questions whilst I lay here, awake, in our bed. Have a nice eternal rest husband, father, friend, one day we'll all see each other again, for this isn't the end. - In loving memory of Alex Ausloos, 19/01/1961 - 23/06/2022 -
I’m sat here, trying to write out the words that I want to come out ever so much. Everything from how I feel and such, to how I miss your ever so soft touch.
I once knew that lovely feeling called “bliss”, one of the many things I miss, one of the many things you made me feel. All this sadness, all this hurt I’m trying to conceal. I don’t know if it’s working or if it’s not, maybe it’s all just for naught.
I know it’s pointless and I know I shouldn’t. But I still love you, even though you couldn’t.
I know I shouldn’t, and I know it’s pointless. But I still love yo
Ever since I met you my life has changed for the better.
I didn't use to dream, but now I do. Every single night, and all I dream about is you.
Dreams of a simple touch, of love of lust. Dreams of how you look at me when I look at you, smiling about this secret we share.
I wasn't truly happy. My appearance said otherwise, but I wasn't, not really. But now every single day is a blessing, a God's given gift. All because you helped me say goodbye to my obstacle, my own personal rift.
Ever since then it's as if I see life through a pair of pink glasses. At least now I understand why they're so popular among the masses.
I guess with al
Live, love, regret,
Sometimes I wish we never met.
It would have saved me the pain of which I've had no gain.
Nothing but a broken heart filled with a hint of misery and sorrow.
And please don't even remind me of tomorrow.
For it's another day hurt, another day I wish I could revert.
Live, love .. I'm glad we met.
My heart you've taken,
my reality you've shaken,
this must be a dream, one of which I don't want to awaken.
Awaken from this dream, awaken with a scream, the pain ever so extreme. Yet however bad it may seem, if that's the price to pay I'll gladly do it over, day after day.
And at the end of it all I can do is promise you this; even if you say "Nay", my love for you will never go away.
You are ..
my love,
my heart,
my everything.
You are ..
the reason I get up in the morning,
the reason I dream at night,
the reason I feel alive.
I know this might sound cliché, but I'll say it anyway; "Maybe one day I want you to be my wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part. And hereto I pledge you my faithfulness."
Saying all of the above I know I'm running the risk of it being too much for you to take, especially as there's quite a lot at stake. But all I ask you to do is look in
I told her I loved her, she said it's sweet.
Perhaps she didn't realise it, but it made my words feel obsolete.
Please don't tell me love's always this bittersweet.
But even so, like a heart needs to beat people need love. Well, sort of ..
Though I never seem to find it. Because every time I try I seem to be in need of glue.
Glue to mend my broken heart once more, just like those times before.
Why do we want what we can't have? That which is ever so close, yet so far away. Is it fair for me to ask of you what you morally can't? Only because I want you to stay? In this better, alternating reality, my dreams you're with me, from dusk to dawn, day after day. But when I wake up you're gone, the usual cliché. Instantly filled with regret, wishing I could just fall asleep again, in "our" bed. Dreaming, hoping, I guess it's just my way of coping. But you know, maybe if I tried hard enough, I could just let it all go and forget. And if that doesn't work, well, I'll just have to learn to live with this regret. Regret for this one and only missed chance at our Romeo and Juliet-like romance.
I’m sat here, trying to write out the words that I want to come out ever so much. Everything from how I feel and such, to how I miss your ever so soft touch.
I once knew that lovely feeling called “bliss”, one of the many things I miss, one of the many things you made me feel. All this sadness, all this hurt I’m trying to conceal. I don’t know if it’s working or if it’s not, maybe it’s all just for naught.
I know it’s pointless and I know I shouldn’t. But I still love you, even though you couldn’t.
I know I shouldn’t, and I know it’s pointless. But I still love yo
Ever since I met you my life has changed for the better.
I didn't use to dream, but now I do. Every single night, and all I dream about is you.
Dreams of a simple touch, of love of lust. Dreams of how you look at me when I look at you, smiling about this secret we share.
I wasn't truly happy. My appearance said otherwise, but I wasn't, not really. But now every single day is a blessing, a God's given gift. All because you helped me say goodbye to my obstacle, my own personal rift.
Ever since then it's as if I see life through a pair of pink glasses. At least now I understand why they're so popular among the masses.
I guess with al
Live, love, regret,
Sometimes I wish we never met.
It would have saved me the pain of which I've had no gain.
Nothing but a broken heart filled with a hint of misery and sorrow.
And please don't even remind me of tomorrow.
For it's another day hurt, another day I wish I could revert.
Live, love .. I'm glad we met.
My heart you've taken,
my reality you've shaken,
this must be a dream, one of which I don't want to awaken.
Awaken from this dream, awaken with a scream, the pain ever so extreme. Yet however bad it may seem, if that's the price to pay I'll gladly do it over, day after day.
And at the end of it all I can do is promise you this; even if you say "Nay", my love for you will never go away.
You are ..
my love,
my heart,
my everything.
You are ..
the reason I get up in the morning,
the reason I dream at night,
the reason I feel alive.
I know this might sound cliché, but I'll say it anyway; "Maybe one day I want you to be my wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part. And hereto I pledge you my faithfulness."
Saying all of the above I know I'm running the risk of it being too much for you to take, especially as there's quite a lot at stake. But all I ask you to do is look in
I told her I loved her, she said it's sweet.
Perhaps she didn't realise it, but it made my words feel obsolete.
Please don't tell me love's always this bittersweet.
But even so, like a heart needs to beat people need love. Well, sort of ..
Though I never seem to find it. Because every time I try I seem to be in need of glue.
Glue to mend my broken heart once more, just like those times before.
I'm in love, but what is she? by Sora81, literature
Literature
I'm in love, but what is she?
I'm in love, but what is she?
Could she only be toying with me?
Maybe she is,
maybe she's not.
Perhaps it's all part of her plot.
I don't know what to believe,
all I am, is afraid she'd leave.
Leave me for what I am, but the half of a riddle.
There is no doubt that she's in the middle.
In the middle, the center of attention.
The center of my heart, I forgot to mention.
The center of my tension, my love, my fear,
all I want is for her to love me dear.
It's not too much to ask I'd like to think,
but then it comes to me, just as I blink.
It's all in my head, or so I was told,
and all of a sudden I feel ever so cold.
I wish she
I love your party, pity I wasn't invited,
but it doesn't matter, because look what I did.
I came anyway, invitation or not,
and crashed your party, it was all part of my plot.
Next time you invite people you'll think twice,
meaning my actions caused you to be nice.
A better person, now you are,
not a douche anymore, by far.
But even now, we both still remember,
what happened on that day, back in December.
Although you said "It's water under the bridge",
I still feel as if our relationship is at the end of a ridge.
But it's all good, because it's for the better,
and besides, I always knew you were a fretter.
She just liked me, yet I loved her.
She just missed me, yet I felt lost without her.
She just wanted to see me, yet I longed for her touch.
I don't understand how I couldn't come to see; it was just the same as always, it would never be.
That's how it turns out every time, mind you. The second drawer is what I get, the best friend one.
And I know she didn't mean for us to end up like this, but just like that first kiss it's something that can't be undone.
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Guess it's also right about time to finish them poems I have lying around here x_X. Stupid last paragraphs >_>.
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